Have You Ever...

Let's play a game. It's called, Have You Ever. Actually, it goes by kind of another name too: Never Have I Ever. You play Never Have I Ever by holding up five {or 10 or however many} fingers. One person states, "Never have I ever..." and goes on to reveal something they have never done. If anyone in the game has done said thing, they put a finger down. If not, they get to keep it up. The last one with fingers up wins.

I usually am pretty bad at the Never Have I Ever game {I've done a lot of things in my life, and for that, I know I'm blessed}, but I always have one that gets {almost} every down one finger. Okay, used to. But I'll get to that in a minute. My one amazing Never Have I Ever is that I have never eaten a Snickers bar. Or Snickers anything. It was slightly delightful to hear those groans knowing I had gotten everyone. {Is that totally evil or me?}.  
 {And now I say used to because I played this game with a bunch of teenager girls. And the next time I saw them, I was given a note and a package of bite-sized Snickers bar. So, to humor them, I did indeed try one. I even videod it. It was a pretty monumentous {is that a word??} moment for me.}

 Anyway, excuse the tangent. Back to Have You Ever. 

Okay:

Have you ever 

Kept a journal?

Consistently?

{I'm not talking a blog here, 

I mean, writing in a journal,

 that's bound, 

with paper in it, 

using a pen 

{or pencil if you really desire}.} 

Slacked on your blog?

Had writer's block?

Got so behind you felt like you didn't even want to try to catch up?

Felt lost?

...maybe?

 The last day I wrote in my journal was July 9, 2012. That was almost two months ago. As most of you probably don't know, I'm a pretty avid journal-er. I'm by no means perfect, nor do I have an account of everyday of my life going back to age 5, but I have filled my share of journals. Many journals. And let me tell you, I had gotten into a really really good habit of writing in my journal. Even when I was tired or lazy or whatever excuse I had come up with for not running earlier in the day {did I mention I'm a total slacker on that too??}, I always could find the ability to write out my day. Go over it in my mind. 

But then, things started happening. 

First, we went on our honeymoon {which was awesome, and, oh yeah, I still need to blog about that by the way}. For two weeks {holy moly, two weeks!} And that's kind of where my journalling got off-kilter.

But I was determined to catch-up. And I did. Well, halfway at least.

Then, we moved out of our house. {Completely. As in it's-all-in-a-storage-shed-collecting-dust kind of moved out.} Oh, and did I mention it's all in a storage shed collecting dust? Meaning that we don't really even have a house? 


But that's okay. Really.

After moving everything out of our house and into a storage shed {to collect dust}, we went on a month long {literally} road trip/vacation/place-to-live hunt. {Which was awesome, and, oh yeah, I need to blog about that too. Oh and also catch up on my journalling because that has been in the past month}. 

And then let's not forget all the inbetweens, like when I was pulled over while I was out to get pudding mix for girls' camp. That's right. That was the most expensive pudding mix I have ever gotten! {Oh and maybe I could blog about that too...but at least I can breathe a sigh of relief because I journalled about it...I think?}. Or how about that time when Jordan and I made a very bold move in California {which I will post as soon as I can, but I'm not going to quite yet because I don't want to jinx anything}. Or what about my photography business that is actually growing {and it quite exciting!} Or my new niece that was just born on Friday {eeee!! *squeals of delight* But of course she had to come just after I leave Utah}. Or maybe I could post about all the happenings in Utah or Canada {oh wait! phew! One out of the way!!} or California. Oh my gosh, and then there's a matter of giveaway winners {don't worry, they have all been announced and given their prizes, but wouldn't it be cool of me to announce them on my blog page too?}. And don't even get me started on this weekend! 

I'm not saying all this to make you feel sorry for me. I'm saying this because, quite frankly, I feel overwhelmed and there is a large part of me that wants to crawl in a small hole {with my computer of course so I can watch all my tv shows and edit my photo sessions} and never have to be responsible for remembering anything ever again. But writing all this out and getting it out of my mind is rather refreshing and makes me feel up for the job. 

I know I don't have a million and two followers, and if nothing else, this blog will be an awesome chance for me to get better at writing and have an online journal {that is totally different from my personal journal btw}, and maybe some people will find it enjoyable.


But just a question: Am I alone in thinking this way? Does anyone else ever feel completely overwhelmed by their blog {or business or whatever}? Or do you just find better ways of handling it than I do? I'd love to hear your thoughts.